in the middle of the night...

Through half closed eyes

I seek you

In the middle of the night 

I reach out my hand 

To pull you closer

In the middle of the night 

I can't sleep... 

I long for your touch

In the middle of the night 

I miss the feeling 

Of being wrapped in your arms 

In the middle of the night 

The touch of your skin 

So calming against mine 

In the middle of the night.. 

I eagerly await 

Being able to hold you 

Love you 

Be close to you 

Touch you 

In the middle of the night 

Every night 

Until there are no more nights... 

And all that remains 

Are you and I... 

~SD~

Back in time..

I wish we could go back

To the first day that we met

Your reaction

When you first laid eyes on me

Still gives me hope...

I wish we could go back

To that first moment we touched

When you put your arms around me

And held me tight against you

I wish we could go back

To the moment our lips first met

That gentle brush of yours against mine

Still sends a little shiver

Down my spine..

I wish we could go back

To those  first days

When every moment spent together

Was so precious and sweet

And every message from you

Made my heart race...

I wish we could go back..

And relive those moments...

Over and over again...

I wish we could go back...

So I don't miss you so much...

~SD~

The Way It Used To Be

On these long lazy summer nights

With the moon at its peak

When the breeze caresses my brow

And the stars shimmer in the distance

I long for the way 

Things used to be

Memories of you 

Linger all over me

The touch of your fingers

And the taste of your lips

The strength of your arms 

And the thoughts of the way

Things used to be 

Those endless conversations 

And the smell of the fire 

The laughter shared 

And the secret smiles 

The feel of you 

Brushing past me... 

Oh how I wish 

For things to go back 

To the way they used to be... 

~SD~

A dedication to my mum...

Two years have gone by

In what feels like 

The blink of an eye

And so many say

It gets easier with time

But I feel your loss 

More and more 

With each passing day... 

And now 

During my toughest battles

My general has left me

To fend for myself

And these days 

I struggle 

And forget 

How strong we can  be

There are days 

When I'm so angry

That you've abandoned me 

In this lonely world 

And then I remember 

Your every lesson

That has equipped me

To be not just a princess in a tower 

But the warrior and the dragon too 

And I gather courage 

From your bravery and strength 

That flows through my veins 

And I miss you 

More and more

But I keep reminding myself 

I am the daughter 

Of a Queen 

~S~

Broken Promises...

For every verbal promise

That you have made

To me

I have made 

A silent vow

To you... 

While you have run

And hidden

These truths 

From yourself

I have been true 

To every single one

Whether you were

Aware or not.... 

The pain of your deceit

Has numbed my soul

To the point where

Even this blade

Dancing across my tender wrists

Offers no release

From the shackles

Of being bound to you... 

And as the blood drips

From the tips of my fingers 

Slowly to the ground

And the world fades 

into darkness

I make you

One final vow.... 

I will never hold 

These broken promises

Against you

In this world

Or the next...

~S~

Rise Phoenix Rise

You think

That you bring me down 

You feel like 

You punish me 

With your words 

And your actions 

You take me 

And break me

You forsake me

And make me 

Want to prove you wrong 

You taunt me

And haunt me

Until I throw down 

The gauntlet

And show you 

Who's queen after all 

You hurt me

And burn me 

But you have yet 

To learn me 

And when you do 

You will know 

That warriors are forged 

Not born... 

You may throw me

To the flames

But never underestimate me

For I will rise again 

Like a phoenix 

from the ashes

And when I come 

To take back what's mine..

There will be 

No place to hide... 

~SD~

Midnight confessions

These lazy conversations

At half past midnight 

Have got me feeling 

Like a teenager again 

These stolen moments 

When the rest of the world sleeps

Have reminded me

That I still have a working smile 

The sound of my phone beeping 

As a message from you comes through 

Has my  heart racing 

Like a kid on Christmas morning 

It's been so very long 

Since I've felt so free 

To confess my secrets to someone 

As today becomes tomorrow 

These midnight confessions 

And whispered laughs 

Create memories 

To last till the end of time... 

~SD~