Time...

I've had such a busy day

I've been running around 

Trying to figure it all out 

I've had such a restless night 

Tossing and turning 

Overthinking and worrying 

But in the midst of my day's chaos 

I find myself day dreaming 

Thinking of you 

And when the night gets lonely 

I lose myself 

In memories of you 

An oasis in the desert 

Of my daily toils 

A shining light 

In the moonless night... 

These are the things

You are to me... 

You slow down time and provide solace

When the day gets out of control... 

Talking to you speeds up time

When each moment drags on slow.. 

My friend... 

My confidante... 

The Timekeeper 

Of my happy place 

I am grateful for you

~S~

Contrasting Souls

We are worlds apart

Him and I... 

So different... 

Incompatible you may say... 

I get lost in fiction... 

He is grounded in fact...

I'm a whimsical sculpture... 

He is set in stone...

I lose myself in emotions... 

He is solid and strong.... 

He wipes away my tears... 

And I don't even know what is on his mind... 

I just wish I knew.... 

How to get through the barrier.... 

Of the constantly moving veil... 

Between our contrasting souls... 

So that we can fit together...

In abstract picture perfection... 

~S~

Strangers

Two faces

Two names

On opposite sides

Of the screen

Words connect them

And distance divides them

He knows

her deepest fears

And intimate secrets

She knows

What makes him happy

And how he lives his life

He listens

When she cannot sleep

And offers comfort

When she reaches out

She lets him vent

When life get stressful

And business gets him down

Yet they have never had

A cup of coffee

Or held each other close

They do not know

What the other feels like

They have never gazed

Into each others eyes

Two strangers

Bound together

Yet so far apart…

~S~

Regrets

The touch of your hand

Against my feverish skin

Kindles love and desire

In my Desperate heart…

The brush of your clothes

Against the back of my hand

As you walk past

Makes me want to pull you close…

The tightening of your arms

Around my waist

Elicits a little sigh

Of contentment…

The pressure of your lips

Against mine

Makes me want to lean in

Closer against you…

Every moment with you

Sparks emotions

Within me…

Fear that you will change

Apprehension when you are upset…

Sadness when you leave me alone…

But most of all…

Regret…

Regret that you

Hold the key

To the door

In the walls

That I have built

So high…

It’s too late

To ask for them back…

~S~

SCARS

In the shimmer

Of the pale moonlight,

I slowly run my fingers

Over my body,

Tracing gently

Over my scars…

How exotic they look,

These markings

On my skin

That were not born

At the same time as me…

Yet they tell a tale

Of struggle and despair

Far more eloquently

Than any story

I could narrate…

Each cut,

Each drop of blood,

Every raised blemish

That marks my skin..

Is like a work of art…

So tragic…

~S~

I wish..

I wish you could read my mind

There's so much I need you to know

I wish I had the courage 

To take you on this journey 

To let you see

What you mean to me

To make you understand 

How you've helped me to grow

I wish I was brave... 

A warrior and a fighter

I wish I could tell you 

You make my burdens lighter 

I wish that you knew 

How vulnerable I am around you

I wish I could tell you 

I don't know how to deal without you... 

So many wishes 

Yet none will come true.. 

But always remember.. 

The most important person to me 

Is you...

~S~

More than friends

We often say to each other

That we are just friends, 

But I am unsure

If we are trying to convince 

Ourselves or each other... 

You are my shoulder 

When I need to be weak... 

I've got your back

When you need to be strong...

The mere thought of you 

Brightens an otherwise gloomy day... 

You are the first person 

That I wish to share my news with... 

Be it joy or sorrow or a mundane task... 

You're the one I run to 

With all of life's troubles... 

I'm the one you call 

When loneliness overtakes you... 

Minutes turn into hours

With conversations 

That can't be transcribed... 

Yet sitting in together in silence, 

Brings with it a special kind of comfort... 

How do we call us just friends... 

When it feels like so much more?

~S~