The Crown You Chose

The crown of thorns

you wear so proudly

sits heavy—

each barb

woven from deceit,

each twist tightened

by another lie

spilled from your tainted lips.

And with every word—

it changes.

Not a crown.

A shroud.

Darkness unfurling,

wrapping,

layer by suffocating layer,

until all that remains

is mistrust.

I used to say:

watch your back.

Not as a warning—

but as loyalty.

As us.

But truth…

truth carves deeper than devotion.

So now I stand

at a distance—

silent.

Watching you sink

deeper

and deeper

into the forest

you grew yourself—

where roots choke,

and branches remember

every lie you fed them.

I do not follow.

I do not call out.

I do not reach.

I save no one now—

but myself

~S~

Where the Tide Takes Me

The scent of salt hangs heavy in the air,

sun-warmed sand crunching beneath my feet

as I walk away from you.

At the water’s edge,

I pause—

turning back for one final glance.

The sunset crowns me in gold,

a quiet halo of endings.

You reach out—

but too late.

You call my name,

it breaks against the wind,

fragile…

useless.

I take another step.

Water curls around my calves,

cold and certain—

and still, you cannot reach me.

Not in time.

I let myself fall back

into the waiting sea,

into arms that do not beg,

do not break.

I drift—

further,

further still—

until you are nothing

but a fading shape on the shore.

You collapse,

hands clawing at what’s already gone,

voice cracking with prayers

that no longer belong to me.

But our time—

has ended.

And then—

You wake.

A violent gasp,

the cruel scream of an alarm,

ripping you from the illusion.

All that remains

is the ghost of salt on your tongue,

and the desperate ache

of trying to hold

what was never yours to keep.

I am gone.

Lost to you—

like something the tide

was always meant to take

~S~

No Mercy for the Night

Restless

The darkness doesn’t arrive quietly—

it claims me,

spilling across the room

like storm clouds devouring a full moon,

warping the familiar

into something edged with shadow.

I try to slip free,

to loosen its grip—

to surrender, gently,

to the mercy of sleep.

But peace is a language

my mind no longer speaks.

It thrashes—

relentless,

untamed—

a storm with no horizon,

no eye,

no end.

I turn.

And turn again.

Sheets twisting into quiet witnesses

of a battle no one sees.

Eyes closed—

but the noise remains.

Louder in the dark.

Sharper in the silence.

Because the cruelest thing about night

is not the absence of light—

it’s the presence

of everything you cannot turn off

~s~

Restless

Restless... 

The darkness doesn’t arrive quietly—

it claims me,

spilling across the room

like storm clouds devouring a full moon,

warping the familiar

into something edged with shadow.

I try to slip free,

to loosen its grip—

to surrender, gently,

to the mercy of sleep.

But peace is a language

my mind no longer speaks.

It thrashes—

relentless,

untamed—

a storm with no horizon,

no eye,

no end.

I turn.

And turn again.

Sheets twisting into quiet witnesses

of a battle no one sees.

Eyes closed—

but the noise remains.

Louder in the dark.

Sharper in the silence.

Because the cruelest thing about night

is not the absence of light—

it’s the presence

of everything you cannot turn off

~S~

in the middle of the night...

Through half closed eyes

I seek you

In the middle of the night 

I reach out my hand 

To pull you closer

In the middle of the night 

I can't sleep... 

I long for your touch

In the middle of the night 

I miss the feeling 

Of being wrapped in your arms 

In the middle of the night 

The touch of your skin 

So calming against mine 

In the middle of the night.. 

I eagerly await 

Being able to hold you 

Love you 

Be close to you 

Touch you 

In the middle of the night 

Every night 

Until there are no more nights... 

And all that remains 

Are you and I... 

~SD~

Back in time..

I wish we could go back

To the first day that we met

Your reaction

When you first laid eyes on me

Still gives me hope...

I wish we could go back

To that first moment we touched

When you put your arms around me

And held me tight against you

I wish we could go back

To the moment our lips first met

That gentle brush of yours against mine

Still sends a little shiver

Down my spine..

I wish we could go back

To those  first days

When every moment spent together

Was so precious and sweet

And every message from you

Made my heart race...

I wish we could go back..

And relive those moments...

Over and over again...

I wish we could go back...

So I don't miss you so much...

~SD~

The Way It Used To Be

On these long lazy summer nights

With the moon at its peak

When the breeze caresses my brow

And the stars shimmer in the distance

I long for the way 

Things used to be

Memories of you 

Linger all over me

The touch of your fingers

And the taste of your lips

The strength of your arms 

And the thoughts of the way

Things used to be 

Those endless conversations 

And the smell of the fire 

The laughter shared 

And the secret smiles 

The feel of you 

Brushing past me... 

Oh how I wish 

For things to go back 

To the way they used to be... 

~SD~