Unrequited...

From within the walls of my memory cottage

Taking with them my thoughts of you 

The curve of your cheek

Slightly rough beneath my fingertips

The warmth of your hand 

As it enfolds mine

The gentle smile

Hidden behind serious eyes

The racing of your heart

As you grow closer to me…

Memories….

All imagined…

Training...

A moonless evening

The mist swirls around their feet

Two faceless strangers

Walking down the street

The girl in the hood

With a secret smile

The man in the trench coat

Who’s been searching for a while

A chance meeting

When they collide in the dark

On the sidewalk

Next to the park

“Sorry Miss,

Didn’t mean to give you a fright”

“It’s okay Mr.

Say, you got a light?”

With steady hands

He lights a match

He tries again and again

But it doesn’t catch

“I’m sorry miss

It was my last one”

“It’s OK Sir,

Just making sure you’re alone”

“Alone? But why?

Are you up to something foul?”

“Not really Sir,

Just a Reaper in Training, collecting my first Soul”

~Shamshaad~

Electric

A frisson of electricity
Crackling through the air
As I walk down the road
While a thunderstorm threatens

Foreboding clouds
Pushing for first place
Friction lighting up the sky
From black to grey to white...

Away

I stand still..
Alone in this busy world
In the hope that you will see
That I Wish you will notice me
But I am not loud enough
Nor am I proud enough
To force your gaze my way
I am not strong enough
To hang around long enough
To make you hear what I need to say
So I slowly step back
Until I fade into the shadows
And though I feel the loss
You haven't even noticed
Someone is missing from your circle...
Drifting away
Into the clouds
Watching you from another world
Through the shroud...
Away... Away... Away... I go..
Far away...

You and I..

We are so different
You and I

Two worlds apart
You and I

There is so much between
You and I

Our paths may never cross
Yours and mine

Yet across this abyss
Between you and me

I watch you and wish
We were us instead of you and I...

Our song...

And it will always be
Our song
This melody that fills
The gap between us
This soft lullaby
That dulls the ache
Within my shattered heart...

I miss the soft whisper
Of your breath
As you sing me to sleep
I softly hum to myself
In my loneliness
Longing for
Your caress

Meanderings through a Troubled Mind

The pills held so tight
in the palm of my hands
dissolve under the deluge 
of tears rolling down my cheeks...

The edge of the blade
glints in the fading sunlight
as the smell of gun oil
reeks through the room
clogging my senses 
and fogging my brain

The rhythmic squeaking 
of the swinging rope
lulls me into a daze
as the ceiling fan lazily turns

Should I give in to these urges?
Or let life guide me slowly
Until the end is all that is left?