Love's Kiss

He comes to me 

In the darkest hour

Before the dawn 

With sweet promises

Dripping from his lips... 

Honeyed words 

To entice my cooperation 

Are whispered

While I am still half asleep... 

His eyes glow

Iridescent in the pale moonlight 

An ethereal gleam

That reflects untold delights... 

His icy fingers 

Brush over my fragile neck

And goosebumps break out 

Over my translucent skin

As the chill travels through my veins... 

He smiles... 

A smile that has seen millenia 

Of blood and war and destruction.. 

He blocks out the moonlight 

As he leans over

And embraces me... 

He brings his lips to mine... 

And gives me love's true kiss... 

The kiss of Death 

~S~

Beautiful Soul

Beautiful Soul

My heart 

Sings your praises 

Causing My eyes 

To overflow 

With pictures 

Of you...

Beautiful soul 

Your smile

Fills up 

The cracks 

In my broken heart 

And makes

Me feel 

Complete again... 

Beautiful soul 

Your arms 

So strong and powerful 

Give me courage 

To face 

Every challenge 

The world throws my way... 

Beautiful soul  

I pray 

That you will 

Always be 

Mine alone

Forever 

By my side 

My anchor 

In stormy seas

My Northern Star 

In the darkest times 

My everything... 

~S~

Silence

When I am quiet

You say it's okay 

You know that I am there 

I don't have to speak

But you cannot hear 

The echoes in my silence 

That call out your name 

It seems as if 

You don't even care 

When hours, days, weeks and months 

Pass us by 

With me being quiet 

And you saying it's alright 

That we don't need to speak 

To know we're still there 

What happens though 

When one day I am gone 

And that day you will need 

My company the most? 

Will my silence still be ok 

Once it becomes permanent?

~S~

At the Edge

I put in the effort

I did the training 

Blood sweat and tears 

Collected in a crystal decanter

As I worked my way 

To the top of the mountain 

Here I stand

King of the world 

Yet so alone 

I feel 

This flutter in my heart

When I stand at the edge 

And look down into the abyss

Why am I not satisfied? 

All this work 

Is it for nothing? 

Or is my greatest achievement

Not merely 

Reaching the peak

But being able 

To leap from it 

Without regret...?

The wind echoes 

The beat of my heart 

And all I hear 

Is jump....

~S~

Learning life's lessons

If I can't talk to you

In my deepest sorrow 

How can I share with you 

My greatest joy? 

If I can't share

My darkest fears

How do I tell you 

What brings me sunshine? 

If I cannot turn to you 

When I am at my lowest 

How do I come to you 

When I soar? 

If you are not there 

When I need you the most 

How we just enjoy 

The simple moments together?

When I reach out to you 

And my hand grasps empty space

I'm learning how to cope 

Without you by my side 

It's a lesson I have to learn

To face the world alone 

To deal with the disappointments

And still come out on top 

~S~

Perfect...

He says I'm perfect

Just the way I am 

But I wonder 

When he looks at my scars 

Does he fear me? 

Do the battles I have fought 

Intimidate him? 

He says I'm beautiful 

And grow more so each day 

But this doubt creeps in

At the back of my mind 

What if this is just a sweet lie 

A temporary temptation 

Until someone better 

Catches his eye? 

He says I'm perfect 

And I don't need to change 

Yet I feel inadequate 

Like a weed 

In his garden of perfection... 

Yet he still insists 

That I am perfect 

Just the way I am.... 

~S~

38 Sleeping Pills

I unscrew the bottle cap

And empty out the pills 

Onto the kitchen table... 

There's 38 pills in the bottle 

I know nothing else 

But I know this

I sat and counted them 

One lonely evening 

38 Sleeping Pills in a bottle... 

I don't know how I feel 

And I don't know what to think 

But I do know 

That those 38 pills

Can open a doorway 

To another world 

I don't know who sees my pain

And I don't know how to share it 

But I do know 

That I have 

38 pills in a bottle 

And they could take the pain away 

They call out to me 

Those pills in that bottle

They sing me a sweet lullaby 

Of lands unchartered 

And depths undiscovered 

And I feel myself lulled into oblivion 

By the 38 Sleeping pills 

In the bottle beside my bed... 

Just 1 will do the trick 

But if 1 feels so good... 

Surely 37 more

Will feel even better... 

So I count them again... 

I have 38 Sleeping pills 

In a bottle.... 

~S~