Help....

I've been telling people

All day long

That I just don't feel

So good today

But everyone is so busy

That nobody is listening

To my cry for help

I've been telling everyone

That there's a knot in my chest

And I can't breathe so well today

But they are all going about

As if it's just a normal day

And I don't know how to tell them

That the darkness is creeping in

And I can't seem to make them see

That I am breaking apart... 

How do I tell them

That all is not okay? 

How do I get their attention 

To let them know that I am failing? 

Perhaps these pills I've found

Will help keep the Darkness at bay 

Or maybe this blade I've discovered 

Will let the darkness flow away 

I've asked so many people 

To help me find the light 

But today they're all so busy 

And the darkness seems just right.... 

~SD~

Drowning

A sea of outstretched hands

Reaches towards me

But not one of them

Is reaching for me

To the left and right they go

Passing me by

To those around me

Yet the call for help

Was sounded by me...

Do they not see

That I am drowning

With neither raft nor life jacket

I am being pulled under

With the weight of my emotions

Yet all they see

Are those around me

That I have pushed to the surface

And saved before me

My name will go down

In the books of history

Among the thousands 

who have perished

In this sea before me

And even in my death

I remain just one of many

Never good enough...

~SD~

Someone to talk to...

Today I really need to talk to you 

I need to share how I feel

But my call cannot connect

Because the signal doesn't reach so high

Today I have so much to tell you

To ease my burdened heart 

But my email cannot reach you

Because there's no wi-fi that far 

I would write you a letter 

So I can relate all of my troubles

But I don't think the postman 

Will ever find the way 

I wish you were still sitting here

So I could lay in the comfort of your lap 

And say to you all the things 

That I never got a chance to confess 

I know we've fought over the years

And many unkind words were exchanged

But never once did I ever doubt 

That you would always be here 

I wish I could say how sorry I am

For the things I've said and done

I have so many regrets 

And I know I've done too little 

I just wish that you were with me 

So we could have this talk face to face

But you're up in heaven 

And I'm in this lonely place... 

And now I really need

Someone to talk to 

But the only person who ever understood

Is out of my reach... 

But I hope and pray 

That you see my tears

And know my heart

And I trust that you will 

Always protect me 

From among the stars

~SD~

Amidst the stars

Tonight

The stars shine

Brighter

Than I've ever seen

The air

Carries with it

A sweet scent

Of jasmine

The crickets

Sing

Melodies

Of joy

Tonight

The gentle breeze

Whispers

Your name

The scent

Of your cologne

Tantalizes

My senses

The warmth

Of your arms

Let's me drift

Away

We soar

Above the clouds

To a distant

Universe

Just you

And I

Amidst

The stars...

~SD~

Love's Kiss

He comes to me 

In the darkest hour

Before the dawn 

With sweet promises

Dripping from his lips... 

Honeyed words 

To entice my cooperation 

Are whispered

While I am still half asleep... 

His eyes glow

Iridescent in the pale moonlight 

An ethereal gleam

That reflects untold delights... 

His icy fingers 

Brush over my fragile neck

And goosebumps break out 

Over my translucent skin

As the chill travels through my veins... 

He smiles... 

A smile that has seen millenia 

Of blood and war and destruction.. 

He blocks out the moonlight 

As he leans over

And embraces me... 

He brings his lips to mine... 

And gives me love's true kiss... 

The kiss of Death 

~S~

Beautiful Soul

Beautiful Soul

My heart 

Sings your praises 

Causing My eyes 

To overflow 

With pictures 

Of you...

Beautiful soul 

Your smile

Fills up 

The cracks 

In my broken heart 

And makes

Me feel 

Complete again... 

Beautiful soul 

Your arms 

So strong and powerful 

Give me courage 

To face 

Every challenge 

The world throws my way... 

Beautiful soul  

I pray 

That you will 

Always be 

Mine alone

Forever 

By my side 

My anchor 

In stormy seas

My Northern Star 

In the darkest times 

My everything... 

~S~

Silence

When I am quiet

You say it's okay 

You know that I am there 

I don't have to speak

But you cannot hear 

The echoes in my silence 

That call out your name 

It seems as if 

You don't even care 

When hours, days, weeks and months 

Pass us by 

With me being quiet 

And you saying it's alright 

That we don't need to speak 

To know we're still there 

What happens though 

When one day I am gone 

And that day you will need 

My company the most? 

Will my silence still be ok 

Once it becomes permanent?

~S~