A dedication to my mum...

Two years have gone by

In what feels like 

The blink of an eye

And so many say

It gets easier with time

But I feel your loss 

More and more 

With each passing day... 

And now 

During my toughest battles

My general has left me

To fend for myself

And these days 

I struggle 

And forget 

How strong we can  be

There are days 

When I'm so angry

That you've abandoned me 

In this lonely world 

And then I remember 

Your every lesson

That has equipped me

To be not just a princess in a tower 

But the warrior and the dragon too 

And I gather courage 

From your bravery and strength 

That flows through my veins 

And I miss you 

More and more

But I keep reminding myself 

I am the daughter 

Of a Queen 

~S~

Broken Promises...

For every verbal promise

That you have made

To me

I have made 

A silent vow

To you... 

While you have run

And hidden

These truths 

From yourself

I have been true 

To every single one

Whether you were

Aware or not.... 

The pain of your deceit

Has numbed my soul

To the point where

Even this blade

Dancing across my tender wrists

Offers no release

From the shackles

Of being bound to you... 

And as the blood drips

From the tips of my fingers 

Slowly to the ground

And the world fades 

into darkness

I make you

One final vow.... 

I will never hold 

These broken promises

Against you

In this world

Or the next...

~S~

Rise Phoenix Rise

You think

That you bring me down 

You feel like 

You punish me 

With your words 

And your actions 

You take me 

And break me

You forsake me

And make me 

Want to prove you wrong 

You taunt me

And haunt me

Until I throw down 

The gauntlet

And show you 

Who's queen after all 

You hurt me

And burn me 

But you have yet 

To learn me 

And when you do 

You will know 

That warriors are forged 

Not born... 

You may throw me

To the flames

But never underestimate me

For I will rise again 

Like a phoenix 

from the ashes

And when I come 

To take back what's mine..

There will be 

No place to hide... 

~SD~

Midnight confessions

These lazy conversations

At half past midnight 

Have got me feeling 

Like a teenager again 

These stolen moments 

When the rest of the world sleeps

Have reminded me

That I still have a working smile 

The sound of my phone beeping 

As a message from you comes through 

Has my  heart racing 

Like a kid on Christmas morning 

It's been so very long 

Since I've felt so free 

To confess my secrets to someone 

As today becomes tomorrow 

These midnight confessions 

And whispered laughs 

Create memories 

To last till the end of time... 

~SD~

Temptation...

I've been looking at them,

For a few days now 

And I have to admit, 

The temptation is getting stronger...

Some days 

They sing out to me 

In a sweet song

Unheard before

And somedays

They Whisper quietly 

Telling me 

All of their secrets 

Tonight 

They are telling me 

That they can take me somewhere 

That I will never wish to leave again 

They shout out loud 

These tempting promises 

And today, 

I feel like giving in

I open the bottle 

And lay them out 

These pretty little 

tempting things... 

One by one... 

I count them out.... 

My beautiful 

travel companions 

Take me away 

I say to them 

As I give in 

To temptation... 

~SD~

Help....

I've been telling people

All day long

That I just don't feel

So good today

But everyone is so busy

That nobody is listening

To my cry for help

I've been telling everyone

That there's a knot in my chest

And I can't breathe so well today

But they are all going about

As if it's just a normal day

And I don't know how to tell them

That the darkness is creeping in

And I can't seem to make them see

That I am breaking apart... 

How do I tell them

That all is not okay? 

How do I get their attention 

To let them know that I am failing? 

Perhaps these pills I've found

Will help keep the Darkness at bay 

Or maybe this blade I've discovered 

Will let the darkness flow away 

I've asked so many people 

To help me find the light 

But today they're all so busy 

And the darkness seems just right.... 

~SD~

Drowning

A sea of outstretched hands

Reaches towards me

But not one of them

Is reaching for me

To the left and right they go

Passing me by

To those around me

Yet the call for help

Was sounded by me...

Do they not see

That I am drowning

With neither raft nor life jacket

I am being pulled under

With the weight of my emotions

Yet all they see

Are those around me

That I have pushed to the surface

And saved before me

My name will go down

In the books of history

Among the thousands 

who have perished

In this sea before me

And even in my death

I remain just one of many

Never good enough...

~SD~