I Miss You

I do not know
If I will ever
See you again
For I know
That I am not worthy enough
To ascend to your level
But I do know
That not a day goes by
Where I don't think of you
Somedays, it's just
A passing whiff of someone's perfume...
Sometimes someone will sound like you
Other days I will hear your voice
Echoing on a passing breeze
Calling out my name
As though you were just
On the other side of the door...
I miss you so much
That my heart aches
And these dreams
Disorientate me
It seems so real
When you say to me
That they made a mistake
It feels like just yesterday
That I left you alone
In that hospital room
And my brain gets muddled
When I wake up
Expecting to see or hear you here
I feel so much guilt
I wish I was there with you
In those final moments
But all I have
Are memories and prayers
And it just isn't enough any longer...
I miss you...

~S~