Darkness

I fear the darkness sometimes...

Yet, somehow, I welcome the chance to hide within the confines of its shadows...  It nourishes the darkness within my soul and kills the pain that stems from being in the light for too long...

There is a place within me, a secret place where my fears are housed.  There is an intruder...someone who has learnt my secrets..someone who knows how to unlock the fear...someone who wishes for the darkness to be unleashed.

It is a fearful thing, this darkness.  It is a living entity with a mind of its own.  Once it has been set free, it is near impossible to re-tether.  My fear is that this darkness will spread to all the good in my past and darken the doorstep of my future.   It is a hungry creature...ever willing to engulf all that crosses its path

I cannot fathom the whens and whys of this unleashing...and I have no solution to reign it back in.  Perhaps, instead of running from the darkness, I should embrace this alternate life...?  Perhaps the time has come to permanently turn off the lights and be at one with the shadows....

Whether you conform or not, society will always criticise.  Why not embrace that which brings you "PEACE".  Peace is maybe not the appropriate word.  Sensory deprivation seems more apt.  That is the offer that this darkness makes, no more feelings, no bad words, no hurtful sights...complete and total darkness...silence...like a caterpillar within a cocoon, awaiting rebirth, a new life...new beginnings..

But first...

EMBRACE THE DARKNESS...

~Shamshaad~