Walking Away

My breath catches

There is a tightness within my chest

A lump in my throat

And heat flames

Behind the curtains of my closed eyes

As the tears threaten to fall

I clench my fist

Tighter and tighter

Holding on as best I can

To the last shreds of strength

Within me

I feel my shield

Slipping away

The tighter I hold

The faster it falls

Like trying to hold on to

A handful of water

My senses seem heightened

Everything looks clearer now

The colours are brighter

And the sounds are crystal clear

An eerie glow surrounds everything

I see much more now

Than I did before

Out of the darkness

I see a figure emerge

Slowly he draws nearer

And I gradually begin to realize

It is another me

In another time

And I am now a mere observer

I see myself

Meeting you

You reach out for me

I walk away

With no hesitation

I see myself alone

Losing the only love I know

I hear your heart breaking

I feel your soul shatter

Yet I do not turn back

I am frozen

I am selfish

The me that I am now

Weeps for the me that I was then

I long for the me that was cherished

By the you that I had denied myself

The me that I am now

Is helpless

Drifting down

Memory lane

~Shamshaad~